Today’s Thought: Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will.
No matter what I do; no matter what anyone says at the moment, I just can’t get rid of the crippling self doubt that follows me around at the moment. It lurks just behind my ear, waiting to whisper corrosive words over my ideas or decisions. It’s a poison that paralyses my whole body and fills me with dread at the thought of having to face it all again next week.
The thing is, though, I have to face it. I know I am in the wrong role, but until I find the right one for me, I have to continue. I want to carry on; I want to find tiny aspects of myself to work on and improve so that when I find what I am looking for, the self doubt is gone.
Struggle teaches you a lesson. Lessons make you wiser. Wisdom gives you strength. Strength turns into self-belief. Self belief shows you anything is possible.
This week I am going to work on being honest with myself and others; I am going to look for the lesson and what I can learn, then use that knowledge to improve my responses. I know I am responsible for increasing my self-belief – if I don’t, I will continue to feel the frustration that I rely on others too much and that their abilities are greater than mine. I will continue to feel a fraud and impostor in my role and my anxiety will grow stronger.
If you feel this disabling self-doubt, join me in trying an affirmation to alter your mind-set. I am going to try: ‘I believe in my skills and abilities.’ Every time I start to crumble in on myself, I am going to aim to repeat that phrase. Let’s build self-belief, not self-doubt.